I'm done

I'm done. I say, gritting my teeth and biting my lip. Holding back the words my thoughts shout at me.
I hate you, I want to say. But all that comes out is the pitiful sound of cries.
My limbs are numb, aching to move towards him. My fingers burn, bones shatter more every second more I refuse to take a step forward.
His eyes seem to be laughing at me, the tone of his voice is mocking me.
You stupid little girl, it says. God forbid, you take off your blindfold.
Don't let his smooth words blur your vision.
If only he was sincere and honest. Loyal, faithful, truthful and real.
Now you're trapped inside your mind, screaming at your reflection in his eyes.You love him.
I hate that I love him. And I'm done fighting it. I am done fighting.
I'm done with the eternal disputes and his wary behavior. They're an agonizing reminder of his distrust. I'm not here to make him happy. I'm not here to dry his tears or clean up the mess he's left behind because he couldn't help himself.
He couldn't internalize his irritation for one more second and because of it, he hurts everyone on his path. 

So I'm done. I say, gritting my teeth and biting my lip. Holding back the words my thoughts shout at me. I hate you, I want to say. But all that comes out is the pitiful sound of cries. My limbs are numb, aching to move towards him. My fingertips throb, bones shatter more every second more I refuse to take a step forward. His eyes gaze at me with unbearable sadness. The sound of his voice tears me apart and rips me into a thousand pieces. I wish I was stupid enough to stay. But his kindness has no promise of forever. One day it might vanish into thin air and leave me broken, more than I am now. So, I'm done. I say.